priceless.

Hi.

I'm Kathleen.

I've kissed 16 boys.

dated 3.5

said 'I love you' to 1.

truly loved 1 i never actually called my boyfriend.

was heavily involved with 3,
though i never called them my boyfriend either.

1 cheated.

2 broke my heart into a million pieces.

1 was nothing but a liar.




dust myself off & try again?
i'll be honest.
i don't know if i even feel like it.

and then I remember...

"Someday. Someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."

:)

♫

you're a song i've never heard.

Lying?

"Tell me the truth, Frank.
Remember that? We used to live by it.
And you know what's so good about the truth?
Everyone knows what it is,
no matter how long
they've lived without it.
No one forgets the truth, Frank.
They just get better at lying."

- April Wheeler , Revolutionary Road

Note to Self: Commit this to Memory.

Desiderata - "Desired Things"

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
for they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

- Max Ehrmann

Copyright 1952.

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appalled.

So i just saw someone leave a POINTLESS comment on their ex's blog that said -

" "Wait and be patient. It takes lots of time for good things to come?" Sooo... like five or so months? Dang that is a whole lot of time for sure. Congrats though for sure. Glad to see you finally found the only thing that will ever make you happy."


i can't believe it. And I can't handle this anymore.

I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE NOT UNDERSTANDING HOW FRAGILE HUMANITY IS.

WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEAN?

WHY DO YOU ONLY DO WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD, ONLY TO LEAVE THOSE OF US IN YOUR PAST TO CRY OURSELVES TO SLEEP?

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DATE HER AND ACT LIKE ITS NOT KILLING ME?

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO HAVE AN OPINION ON WHO SHE DATES?

WHY CAN'T YOU GROW UP?

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO CHEAT ON MY GODMOTHER FOR TWO YEARS?

WHY CAN'T YOU LET HER BE SO SHE CAN GET PAST YOU?

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO MEAN TO HER, JUST BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T AGREE WITH YOU ON ONE LITTLE THING?

WHY DOES IS SEEM LOVE NEVER LASTS ANYMORE? I can think of 3 couples i personally know that have filed for divorce in the last 3 months.

i can't take it.
I can't keep from crying.
When will we learn?
When will good people stop hurting?

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE A GOOD TRUSTWORTHY PERSON WHO DOESN'T GO AROUND STOMPING ON ANYONE WHO EVER CARED ABOUT YOU?

IT. IS. NOT. THAT. HARD.
OH. MY. WORD.


this world is so reckless. its hurting me all over.

Unfortunate Coincidence. By Dorothy Parker.

By the time you swear you're his, Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is Infinite, undying-
Lady, make a note of this: One of you is lying.

- Dorothy Parker

well.

i feel better.

but this is still gonna hurt.

ouch.

do you know what you're worth?

"our love for others
should not depend
on them loving us back"

.

I'm in a weak condition.
Now you cut into the heart of me.

believable doubt?

hmmmm.

Breaking your back
to cover your tracks,
ya did it for love or 'something like that'
I don't know who to believe.
In so many words you try to explain,
but how many times can the story get changed?
I. don't. know. who. to. believe.

and what's between us
just won't add up.

oooh, give me some believable doubt.
Why should I believe in you now?!?!?
From what I see,
you call yourself an innocent man,
but tell me about
the blood on your hands?
I wanna hear the truth from you.

The devil's talking to me as you fall on your face,
angel beside me saying I should be taking your place?
I don't know who to believe.
There's a criminal part to everyone's heart,
outside's clean and the inside's falling apart.
I don't know who to believe.

Walk away you're free to go home.


walk away now.

Thats when i'll know.

I believe the one I'm supposed to be with is out there.
And when he finds me, and I find him, it won't be hard.
I won't have to convince him to love me. He just.... will.
We will fall into the relationship perfectly. (well almost perfectly.)
No drama. People will be happy for us.
He won't have a fresh ex...
Because he respects her enough to take
some time in between for them both to heal.
So I won't feel like I'm stomping on her.
Cause it will have been awhile.
And he won't have a tangled mess of other girls...
Cause he is a great guy.
Not a player. Not a Liar.

I'll tell him my story, and he won't think I'm a cry baby.
He'll know my hurt was real, and its part of who I am.
And he'll tell me his story. And I'll fall in love
with how he wants so much to be a better person.
And I'll know he's telling me his genuine desires.
And I won't be falling for some cheap song lyric pick up line.
Cause this one doesn't need pick up lines.
Cause this guy is the real deal.
When he holds my hand...
it won't be just because he's lonely.
It will be because he can't stand to not hold it.

And I'll trust him. And he'll trust me.
And I'll know he'll never lie to me.
But most of all... I'll know he'll never lie to himself.
And we'll take it slow... as slow as Christmas.
Cause he's not in it for the make-out sessions.
He'll tell me I'm so special.
And I'll have a hard time believing it at first.
Because I've been told that before,
and it was a bold face lie.

But once he convinces me that I've changed his life,
And I KNOW he really means it...
That is when I'll know.

Slowdancing in a burning room.

"Its like you're in a burning room. You're on the floor, under the smoke, gasping for air... You know your time is running out FAST. You're disoriented... you can't find the door out. Anywhere. You're stuck.

Then. You hear a voice - "COME TO ME! OVER HERE! THIS IS THE ONLY WAY OUT!"

Do you stand up and say, "Boy. You're cocky. I just don't really believe you. I think I'll find my OWN way out."??



NO. YOU DON'T.

You RUN to that voice as fast as you can. You believe him. You know he is your only hope for survival.

Your. Only. Chance.



... Jesus didn't say 'I am the way, the truth, and the life, no one can come to the father but through me' because he was COCKY.

He said it because we have no hope without him. We will surely suffocate. It is the TRUTH.

He is our only way out.


the end."

folktronica? :)

not me.

"Some days aren't yours at all,
They come and go as if they're someone else's days.

They come and leave you behind with someone else's face,
And it's harsher than yours. And colder than yours."

- Regina Spektor

this is only a test.

The true measure of a person

is how they treat someone

who can do them

absolutely no good.

- Samuel Johnson

You, there.

I've thought about you all day today. And I do mean ALL day.

Where you are, what you're doing... if you're thinking about me?

I sure hope you are.

I'm writing you letters... and if I know you, [like I feel like I already do] you'll love them.

And you'll appreciate them.

Because you appreciate me.

i know, i know.

preview for my future husband, HAYYYY

Well. My SUPER talented friend Christina took some pictures today, so fun:)

i liked these a lot, but i should not put them on Facebook... for obvious reasons. SO i will put them here. :)

Sorry if it offends you. Maybe you shouldn't stalk me online? hahah just kiddinnn.



i had a tank top on. Simmer down now:)

You Forgot.

And I am thankful.

also, its been two months blahhhhblahhhblahhh

so over it. :)