Remember?

Dear YOU,

Remember when HE used to text/call me, and you'd see it all over my face who it was before I even told you it was HIM?

You're that guy now.

My face wrinkles in annoyance and my eyes roll [without my conscience consent] at the mention of your name.

Hope you're satisfied.

It seems painfully obvious that is what you were going for... so congratulations, you've succeeded!

Love, Me.

please come

please come. and please hurry. Oh good LORD, would you friggin' hurry?

I need you so much. I am dying. Completely dying.

I can't do this much longer without you.

sun.

i can't keep from crying.

:)

Good night, good life.

just sayin'

You came out of nowhere and made me smile.
Then tore me in two.
Sayin' we're very different people so dear,
I hope you find somebody more like you.

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resilience

re·sil·ience

Pronunciation- \ri-ˈzil-yən(t)s\

1 : an ability to recover from or adjust easily to misfortune or change

Vivere senza rimpianti.

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind

And now all your love is wasted
And who the hell was I?
I'm breaking all the bridges
And at the end of all your lines

all i want to do is tell the truth.







i did today at lunch... i did tuesday night, i did the day before yesterday, i have been since april 2nd. and with him, its all i ever did.

i've never been much of a liar... but from this experience, that name is something no one will ever be able to call me.

starting NOW, to call me a liar will be nothing but a lie.

crossyourfingers

the last two days have been good.

don't jinx it ohmygahhhhh!

Me.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there. — Bob Marley

I'm still so paranoid.

SHUT UP KATHLEEN.

your gonna move on.


also... i borrowed Lost season 1 from a friend. This could be good, or this could be very very bad.

nobody's fault

I got the boost I needed to get over you.

It 'wasn't what I thought', I was 'very wrong', and 'You caught yourself before you did it again'... but to me it doesn't matter.

I can't trust you, cause you can't trust yourself. What a terrible basis for a relationship. I don't care how hard your trying... you're not there yet. And if you slip this fast... sooner or later, you'd hurt me again.

She's great, I'll give you that. But do what you say you will. For goodness sake. What you swore to me you would... and swore to a million other people.

I gotta be done. I have to stop thinking your just this GREAT GUY... cause deep down you aren't yet. I think you're trying, but I just don't know if I'll ever trust you... obviously you've lied to everyone else... sooner or later it WILL be me.

Now I guess I'll begin the process of pulling my heart out of this stupid mess you made for me.

Great.

7 different kinds of pain

My stupid foot.

My stupid heart.

They hurt.



Both were an accident.

Both will take some time to heal.



Both make me MAD.

Same hurt, different summer.

What is it about summer that always hurts?

Sleeping to dream about you,
and I'm so tired of having to live without you.

I found myself in the riches,
Your eyes, your lips, your hair, and you were everywhere.

I woke up in the ditches,
I hit the light and I thought you might be here, but you were nowhere.

I heart

Leaving for NYC early Wednesday morning.

i hope i feel more like myself there.

From a friend.

He said - Things i love about Kath checklist...and go!

Self emptying to the max, so cute, more depth than people give credit, i love that you are from Alabama, so real, southern but in the best way, cute smile, great laugh, love that you get really weirded out easy, you are a good crazy, good attitude, great voice, great hair, honest, funny, versatile, not easily grossed out, great music taste, cute mannerisms, good... no... great curvy, sweet demeanor, can hold your own in a verbal joust...

I said - JOUSTTTT. YESSSS!!!

Its amazing what a little pep talk can do. Because even if he made every one of those things up, and lied through his pretty white teeth, some days a girl just needs to hear how great she is.

because when you get dumped... you forget how much youre worth. You compare how much you talk to him to how important you are. And today, i'm as important as two text messages. Lame ones, at that.

If he didn't want you around, then why would anyone? This is what you begin to think. And eventually... you're so bummed out... no one wants you around for sure. Snowball. LAME.

starting this very second, every time i feel like i'm the one with the problem... i'm gonna read a book.

I need a book store, pronto.