I can watch a sun set on my own

I can't sleep because its the 14th at 11:34pm and you're not here in this apartment with me when we've been together, and seemed pretty damn happy I might add, every 14th at 11:34pm for the last YEAR and I can't NOT write this down because it keeps repeating in my head so I'm hoping maybe if I write it down it will stop but it probably won't because
I'll never really know if you feel this same way.