mourning.

my MacBook is on her death bed. :(

in other news, I'd like my real-life Seth Cohen ASAP, please.

thanks.

oh, glorious afternoon.

do you copy

PLEASE GIVE
ME SOME
NEW HISTORY.

you, sir -

I never want to need you.

I only want to want you.

capeesh?

O-

I thought a lot about my granddaddy today. He died of Leukemia 2 & a half years ago, and I still miss him. He lived for 9 months on blood transfusions, and his life was lengthened by the generosity of probably over 1000 donors.

So I gave blood today too.

I felt really proud to know I was helping someone else's grandfather.

its just emotions, taking me overrrr

I'm so excited! Lent starts in 5 minutes!

This year, I've decided to follow this plan with my best friend Bryan as my accountability partner/ partner in crime.

also I'm making sure to read something inspiring every day.

I'm starting with this.
also, I'm self diagnosing myself with S.A.D.
I've been so down and out lately, for no apparent reason?
also, emotional to the max. MMM so attractive.

BUT. Lent is going to be wonderful.
Because Jesus is a friend of mine. I have a friend in Jesus.

alright? alright.

lets start giving

lovely. except wait, who invited Fergie?

listen.

I may be emotional. And I may be obsessive. And I may be contradictory and indecisive and annoying at times. I may sometimes say the wrong things, and do the wrong things, or be too honest and spill my guts to whoever will listen,

But at least you know who i am.

I don't tell you I want to change when I know I have no intention of even trying. I don't let myself make the same mistakes twice. I don't tell people who I wish I was but am NOT, I tell them who I AM and I don't apologize for it.

A man is only as good as his word.
And if you live your life by saying one thing and doing the opposite,
then count. me. out.

also, don't be surprised when I call you out on it. Kathleen Dunn keeping her mouth shut while watching you hurt people over and over and over is just never gonna happen.

as if i could love him anymore

a battle with the heart isn't easily won

can someone please tell me why my heart hurts so bad?
because don't know why
and its killing me.

i need you so much.

you say that but i dont believe you

...rolls
eyes.

this

is currently consuming my every thought.

Que fais-tu, blanche tourterelle?
Stephano's aria from Romeo et Juliette

Depuis hier je cherche
en vain mon maître!
Est-il encore chez vous?
Mes seigneurs Capulet?
Voyons un peu si vos dignes valets
A ma voix ce matin
Oseront reparaître.

Que fais-tu blanche tourterelle,
Dans ce nid de vautours?
Quelque jour, déployant ton aile,
Tu suivras les amours!
Aux vautours, il faut la bataille,
Pour frapper d'estoc et de taille
Leurs becs sont aiguisés!
Laisse-là ces oiseaux de proie,
Tourterelle qui fais ta joie
Des amoureux baisers!
Garder bien la belle!
Qui vivra verra!
Votre tourtlerelle vous échappera,

Un ramier, loin du vert bocage,
Par l'amour attiré,
A l'entour de ce nid sauvage
A, je crois, soupiré!
Les vautours sont à la curée,
Leurs chansons, que fuit Cythérée,
Résonne à grand bruit!
Cependant en leur douce ivresse
Les amants content leurs tendresses
Aux astres de la nuit!

Gardez bien la belle!
Qui vivra verra!
Votre tourtlerelle vous échappera!

okay. I GIVE UP

On you. And you, and you.

I've been giving and giving and giving and I've gotten nothing in return. I'm sick of bringing it up, and trying to fix it. I've done nothing to deserve to be treated like this, and I don't want any of you around anymore. So I'm taking myself out. If you want to talk to me, you have my number but I doubt you'll be needing it anyway.

Maybe you can call me when you all get off your high horses.

I'm sorry I have nothing more flashy to offer you other than an unconditional friendship, but clearly that isn't enough.

See you on the sidewalk.

not sueing, but sewing.

I just bought this.

I'm so excited for it to get here.