After a breakup, you have to buy new perfume. 

Why? 

DON'T ASK QUESTIONS. 

YOU JUST HAVE TO.

okay, I'll finally admit it.


It never felt perfectly right. I never KNEW in my heart that you were my husband.

But that doesn't mean that it didn't feel wonderful, every single second of it.


Because it did.

And I miss all of it. Every bit.


I miss that stupid mark on your eyelid and the way you pull up your pants.
I mean dear God, even ice cream is ruined.



I am desperately sad and I don't see how that is ever going to end.

My life came in two. 

This is the second act, 

the healing half.

This is when the feeling sinks in, 

I don't want to miss you like this.

Come back, be here. 

I don't want to need you this way.

Come back, be here.

This is falling in love in the cruelest way.

This is falling for you 

and you are worlds away.


And I break down, 
cause it's not fair that you're not around.

To live in this world

you must be able
to do three things:

to love what is mortal;
to hold it

against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;

and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.

- Mary Oliver

1 month.

"That self that is reflected in the love of your very best friends' eyes. The self that is revealed in divine feminine energy, your own, Bette Midler's, Hillary Clinton's, Tina Fey's, Michelle Obama's, Mary Oliver's. I mean, you can see that they are divine, right? Well, you are, too. I absolutely promise."

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3 weeks.

Nashville, you filled that hurt in my heart tonight.

There’s no music, no confetti, crowds don’t cheer and bells don’t ring - but you’ll know it, I can guarantee, when the right one comes along.

What they're thinking, what you're feeling, you no longer have to guess,

all those questions, finally put to rest when the right one comes along. 

Every single broken heart will lead to the truth, & you think you know what you’re looking for, til what you’re looking for finds you. 

 In a cold world it’s a warm place where you know that you’re supposed to be, 

a million moments full of sweet relief when the right one comes along.

Its so easy, there is nothing to it, though you may not believe me now.
But I promise - Honey, you'll find out when the right one comes along.

All that changes is only everything when the right one comes along.

Heart song, 12/6/12

And I wish you all the love in the world,
But most of all, I wish it for myself.

And the songbirds keep singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before.

I miss you all over.