um...

why do i live like i have to impress everyone?

P is for

roll credits.

and where do you begin,
When you have so much to say, but nothing much to say.
When you hurt so bad, but you don't hurt at all.

I don't hurt at all.

There is nothing like realizing you complained for so long about loneliness... when, somehow in your subconscious, you knew feeling lonely had to be better than feeling nothing at all.

So you took it, and you kept it, and you defined yourself with it.

Then one day, you're not lonely anymore. You're just... nothing.

You've made me feel nothing. At all.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND THIS?

Clearly, I'm forbidden to understand.

Healer? Healer.

Nothing is impossible for You.

You hold my world

In your hands.

Love loud, don't lose loud.

I know it's impossible,
but you should try to shake it off.
Just stop and shake it off.
You're gonna re-arrange us.

Science I can relate to.

dis ain't a rap song

dis is muh lyfe.
Kids, don't try this at home.

♡

eighties flashback

"You can see the summit but you can't reach it,
Its the last piece of the puzzle but you just can't make it fit.
Doctor says you're cured but you still feel the pain...
Aspirations in the clouds but your hopes go down the drain."

AHHHHHHHHH. for lack of a better word.

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.

I don't I don't I don't.

and I probably never will!?

I just really can't handle this.

It is all I ever think about.

I'M GOING CRAZY.

AND I NEED IT TO STOP.

Its all so stupid and its all your fault.

i fell in love today.

with William Fitzsimmons.

"I'm not comfortable with how the story ends.
We were lovers, and now were not even friends."

You still hurt me.

i am a nerd.

but this was fascinating.

Our Decisions.

realization

it is hard

to be happy for 2 in a relationship when you know those two hurt someone else really bad to be together.

because I know that pain.

i'm glad you're getting married. Its sweet, really. But just know, someone else will be crying on your wedding day.

And that hurts me.

I hope you're making the right decision. Because otherwise, all her tears will have been for nothing.

please be more considerate of others in your past from now on?

<3

.......

.......


"I did everything right
for somebody who does everything wrong"
- Elliott Smith

strong enough to break

i'm alright.
i'm okay.

i can handle this?

i'm strong.
i'm stable.
i'm real.

i'm broken,
but not too proud to admit it.

maybe i won't cry?

i will not pout.
i will not complain... much.


one thing i do know -

also,

i laugh at you.
at you and your dumb haircut.

:]

?

It’s like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can’t believe it,
You were always singing along.

It was so easy and the words so sweet,
You can’t remember.
You try to feel the beat.

You spent half of your life trying to fall behind,
You’re using your headphones to drown out your mind.

It was so easy, and the words so sweet,
You can’t remember.
You try to move your feet.

Someone’s deciding whether or not to steal,
He opens the window just to feel the chill.

It was so easy and the words so sweet
You can’t remember,
You try to feel the beat.

dented hearts

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves,
'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous'?

Actually, who are you not to be?

Your playing small does not serve the world.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

Begin today. Start today.

Start taking responsibility for your life,
freeing all that energy you waste
on that victim mentality to start building
the life that you were intended to live."

- Marianne Williamson

i believe

that my life's gonna see

the love I give

returned to me.

if i were braver

i'd write lyrics like Regina.
and i wouldn't care if someone thought they were stupid.
cause they are not.

they are beautiful.