OMG, LIKE TOTALLY.

Today, After class, I -

Went to Victoria Secret for the 'Panty Raid' - 7 for $25, how could I resist?
Tried 2485 types of eyeshadow at Sephora, bought nothing.
Drank a Diet Coke.
Sang along with Katy Perry while talking on the phone with my BFF. [about all the boyzzz]
Picked up my Yaz from Walgreens.
Practiced voice.
Practiced piano.
Went to a choral concert. [also a meeting, which I spent most of thinking about what dress I'm wearing for Jr/Sr.]
Ate sushi for dinner.
20 minutes with Jillian Michaels [30dayshred]
Painted my nails.
Updated my blog.

- Now I'm laying in bed, waiting for my Pretty Little Liars episode to load.
Not to mention, I'm on my period. [TMI, oh well]

I think this may be the girliest day in the entire Kathleen Dunn existence... FURRRSHURRREEE.

God only knows what I'd be without you.

oh, Big Love.
You've been an obsession in my life for the past 2 years, and I will miss you so.

you make me new, you are making me new.

i may be the most volatile person i know.

heywatchthis!

I'm working hard on my 'ten things I know to be true' list.

split screen

"What should I do about the wild and the tame? The wild heart that wants to be free, and the tame heart that wants to come home? I want to be held... I don’t want you to come too close. I want you to scoop me up and bring me home at nights - I don’t want to tell you where I am. I want to keep a place among the rocks where no one can find me, but I want to be with you." - Jeanette Winterson

These days I'm struggling with the 2 sides of me.

How can I be carefree, but still guard my heart?
How can I be spontaneous, but still be responsible?
How can I feel young, but still grow older?
How can I take care of my body, but still love it? 
How can I be cautious but still feel bold?
How can I care for you - but still let you go?
How can I be strong, when I am naturally so emotional?

Some times I feel like a different person every day. How can that be?

I'm over it.

I haven't updated this in awhile - and I really miss it.

And you know why? Its because I'm embarrassed of my emotions.

I'm embarrassed about being upset, or down&out, or just flat out bummed.

And when I'm happy or excited, I'm afraid someone will see this & think I'm bragging.

I'm going through a lot right now. But its something I'm trying not to advertise... 
to the point that holding everything in is close to making me explode.

I'm scared of wanting to write out how I feel because maybe someone will make fun of me for it.

I'm scared everyone will think I'm complaining, 
or that I'm being dramatic, 
or that its tacky to put how you really feel online 

- but screw that.

I'll say how I feel whenever & wherever. 

And right now I feel claustrophobic - like everything I do is for someone else.

But this is for me - it always has been.

  This is just how I'm feeling.

I'll just put it here.

I'd write in my journal to hide away but that just doesn't feel the same.